I don’t know why it is, but against what logic I can muster, the ease of cynicism and negativity is somehow more draining than the effort it takes to make the attempt to find some small glimmer of positivity. Maybe the contradiction is easily explained by the sheer abundance of disparaging comments and thoughts that I find myself presented with on a daily basis, or maybe a hopeless, terrible world built piecemeal weighs too heavily on the soul. The bottom line though is that I have found myself feeling much like Bilbo Baggins described, being “butter spread over too much bread.” The realization that the feeling stems from an overabundance of negativity is something that I’ve been flirting with on and off for a while – I had previously completely stopped paying any attention to the news for example, and whenever it comes up in social media I find myself distressed by it and what reactions it garners. Why it took me so long to extend the teachings of this lesson into other aspects of my life is troubling, but the steps that I am taking now make the old idiom of “better late than never” apt.
Internet Comments & reddit
Somehow over the past few years I became a “redditor,” a user of the site reddit that aggregates user-submitted posts and links to new stories. While it is possible on reddit to get news quickly and see some neat user-created content, the trade-off is a “democratic” cesspool where vile, backwards comments are rewarded with high visibility as a bunch of like-minded people pat themselves on the back and take pride in a false shell of “discussion” that they claim to value. The irony is that there are internal factions within reddit that try to counter the biases of the site while resorting to the same petty, childish, ignorant tactics that they themselves decry. The result is that from the view point of a lone individual, reddit is irredeemable and any effort spent to improve the site is wasted.
A careless player in League of Legends has wandered to a pointless death, creating all kinds of problems for his team.
A recent winning streak in League of Legends took a turn for the worse. Confidence and pride were gradually replaced with uncertainty and doubt; at times the usually vocal and active Skype call was as silent as a graveyard as what seemed to be a winning situation spiraled out of our control.
“Are we just going to seethe in silence then?”
“No, I’m just trying to figure out where things went wrong.”
My thoughts raced. What happened? How did things fall apart, especially when it seemed like we were doing so well? What can I do to turn things around? As a team, what can we do right now to win this game instead of lose it? Do I need to stay in the base and defend, or get more vision on the map by venturing out and placing sight-granting wards? Is there some item I can buy now to achieve success?
So those kooks over at Socksmakepeoplesexy.net came up with an idea to rip-off GiantBomb with their own GiantBpwn site.
I contributed a couple of videos and a review:
I was offered an internship with GiantBpwn but after the CEO was allegedly in some compromising situation with a fictitious videogame character I figure now is a good time to retreat back to my own personal little castle. That said, the content is pretty good and should be checked out!
Well faithful readers, you may have realized that my updates are even more sparse than usual for the work season, but I can assure you my half-assed attempt at keeping a gaming blog has paid off. I’ve got a new opportunity on the horizon that… well, I just can’t talk about it quite yet. When I can say something more on what’s happening I will do so.
In the meantime my videos and other productions will be on hiatus as things come together and get ironed out.
I wish to sincerely thank you all for your time, attention, patience, and support; I hope that you enjoy what the future holds as I get to participate in and create bigger, better things.
When I think back to my earliest days of PC gaming, one scene comes to mind. I am alone on a desolate Martian moon during an all-out demonic invasion. Imps and possessed marines are advancing toward me with blood in their pixelated eyes. The only thing between me and them is a mother-fucking pump shotgun. In my opinion, id’s DOOM shotgun is probably the greatest feeling weapon in videogames, and if new Rage footage is to be believed, id/Bethesda is bringing it back for 2011.
I can't wait to get behind this beautiful shotgun!
While I’m posting gun-porn:
This bullpup rifle isn't hard on the eyes either.
Hey id, how about some high-res renders of these weapons to make sweet wallpapers? Please?